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My personal story is fairly simple. I grew up with Christian church experiences and influences and at age 10, I wanted to be baptized into a church that my father had just found out about from my aunt, the Seventh-Day Adventist Church. My mother, a Baptist at the time, would allow it only if I also attended church with her on Sunday. So weekends for a couple of years were quite churchy indeed. The contrasts in worship styles at the time were interesting, too, but I enjoyed them both. Now, I knew early in life that I had attractions to guys, however I had no idea of what, if anything, to do about that. Until college. Then the attractions just wouldn’t be stilled. Being so involved in church life and music, I began to resent how my heterosexual friends could fall in–and out–of love and talk sex openly and receive a pat on the back, letting them know that they were still alright. Some of those same friends tried to call me out when I wasn’t ready, and I knew that I was definitely not alright with them. That emotional wounding coupled with a feeling of disappointing my family was the basis of my decision to leave the Christian church.

Part of my coming out journey involved talking with a new friend, Floyd Poentiz, of the local SDA Kinship chapter. What really impressed me about Floyd was that he was (and is) still a part of his local church worshiping regularly. I began to attend church again, however I just couldn’t stick with it. I needed space and admit that I still enjoy that state of separation from my church if for nothing else than respect for each others’ space. However, as I receive the Connection magazine still from SDA Kinship, Intl, I cannot help but be touched by the stories of those who choose to stay in their churches and continue the dialogue with parishioners and pastors and even authoring the book, Christianity and Homosexuality: Some SDA Perspectives, to aid in the process of creating talking points. Their work allows for people to understand who is really providing the salvation believed to be needed by all in the Christian church. I wonder if this is not a nobler form of protest in addressing the Christian community.

Why these experiences come to mind lately is because I when I think about how several bloggers and other individuals in and out of California who took issue with African-Americans/B/black voters who chose ‘Yes on Prop 8′, I said then that it had more to do with religion than with ethnicity. Then when my point was validated through Associated Press, I figured that where we would begin building alliances with individuals belonging to the churches in the communities of color that voted ‘Yes’. Could you really do that without being intimately involved with members of those churches in some way?

Another reason why my past experiences come to mind is the recent brouhaha of the selection of Rick Warren to give the invocation at the inauguration of President-elect Barack Obama on January 20, which I believe is being blown out of proportion by Human Rights Campaign and others. This quote concerning the choice of Rick Warren conducting the invocation from the director of HRC’s Religion and Faith program, Harry Knox, on the Newshour with Jim Lehrer takes the cake:

And this is like putting an anti-Semite at the first part of the program and then saying, “Well, we’re going to add a rabbi at the end. Won’t all the Jews be happy?”

This is the worst possible choice the president-elect could have made. This is a divisive choice, not one that brings America together.

With similar respect to that of my friends in SDA Kinship, Intl., I respect Barack Obama for allow for different points of view at the table and as he says, “to disagree without being disagreeable”.

Churches are highly personal and optional communities that we choose and hopefully feel welcomed into to enrich our human experience. If that welcome and enrichment is not there, I will submit that it’s time for a new community. Like I mentioned before, I needed space from the church and admit that I still enjoy that state of separation from the church if for nothing else than respect for each others’ space. And in the spirit of that respect, I believe the fight for justice is the fight for both sides to coexist regardless of who is in the majority and I feel uncomfortable seeing protesters outside of a church, especially during worship services. I would not want some Christian group, as some have attempted, to try to stand outside my favorite bar/club protesting the patrons inside. My observation with both of the aforementioned scenarios is that any reciprocal change of heart and mind is less likely when tried in the court of public opinion. If reciprocal change on either side is not the goal, then why the protest?